Fragile Girl in Haunt.

Please, please, please let me, let me, let me get what I want. I've got a tight grip on reality but I can't let go of what's in front of me here. You're gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul. He would try to take away my pain, and he just might make me smile but the whole time I'm wishing he was you instead. Well you build up the world of magic because your real life was tragic. Broken pieces of a barely breathing story where the once was love, now there's only me and the lonely. I can be tough, I can be strong, but with you it's not like that at all, there's a girl that gives a shit, behind this wall, you just walk through it.

Well, okay, I won't going to think about it. It's over. I'm so stupid. Stupidest girl alive, who still thinking about her jerk ex. I mean, it's a first love. It's complicated. For three years I've been in love with him. I'm just some... k whatever.

Okay. For my situation, I positively think that Haunted by Taylor Swift fit my situation. Seriously. Read it.

And yeah, I still cry when listen to The Only Exception and it's getting more sadder when I read his text last year. Shit.

But um yeah, I can't giving up on moving on. I'm listening to Get Back by Demi Lovato. It was my favourite song when I was 11, when I had crush on him. When I thought this song about me and him. Oh god. But I'm kinda happy listening to it back. I got crazier like what I've felt when see him LOL k whatever.

So now I'm listening to Gonna Get Over You by Sara Bareilles :)

You know how I relieved stress? I just play Rock Band, because why? Because there are Guitar, Bass, Drum and Voice. I always choose voice, not by touch (meaning tap because I play in iPad) but with voice. Have to sing loud to get full score. And I always got full score every time I feel tension. It works. And of course, I just write. Write. Write. Draw. Doodle. And just talking to myself about my feelings. Then write about my feelings, then I feel alright.

Okay gonna stop by now. I want to dance and be crazy now and yell in my room and don't give a damn if my neighbour hear me. I'm rock. I'm awesome and I know it. No me gusta xD . Gonna sing King of Anything! Sara Bareilles (Y) Then an old song called Heart Breaker by Pat Benator. Whatever I just going to sing. Also Paramore. Pretty girls rock.

I'm a rockstar and you're gonna love me.