Excuse me, I'm bored.

Exam's like... 2, 3 days more to go. Look at me, can't sleep at night, bored, doing what teenagers do, make retarded face ever. Ignore it, looks ugly and hideous but I just want to share this is the face of mine when I can't sleep at night. It's already 3AM. And it's school day like whatever.

Sorry for keep swearing like saying shit or fuq or whatsoever. I've been such a mess these days.

Btw, the above picture, I look like a drug addict am I? T___T Heavy eyebags like... 150 pounds. Lol k ridiculous.

I admit, I'm kinda scared now... Okay...

I feel like I give up on everything. My life, my study, I don't know what the hell's with me. I miss myself when I was 12. I was fun, free, happening, crush that likes me back, smart student. But now... Sigh.

How can I get back those happy moments? Hmm.

I don't trust in best friend any more. I don't trust guys anymore when it comes to relationship. I don't trust myself anymore on doing anything. I lose confidence.

I mean, I don't know. I always fail in keeping friendship last. Always fail in being a good girlfriend, which is not important at all since I have to focus on study. I'm the most laziest girl ever. Look at my bedroom. My result. My bag. All messed. Like my brother said 'ANDALAS' means anak dara pemalas -_______________-"

And I've troubled so many people. I hate that. I wish I have money so I won't trouble them. I have to study to get job. Once I get job, I'll have money. Right? Oh I have to study like 5 years at university to be a doctor. But at this age, I can be an author, right? So, I'll try. Try my best to be best author. Make my mum proud although she doesn't like me being author. Prove to everyone I am creative, too.

When will the exam's over -.-'



Well, nothing to say more. Until now, I'll blog later. Nothing much happens, so yeah. I shall fare thee well. Lol am I right? :3


xoxo
Nor Najla Nadhirah



PS: I need my Aishah Mutmainnah<3