Just think about it, makes me feel more... cold. Shivers. It gives me tingle.. Or whatever you call. It's just gives me prickle of fear. Heart-thumping. I feel nervous. My eyes... begin to watery. Like.. well, of course, tears. It makes me shivering like seriously. The fear's killing me. Even while I'm writing this, I'm feeling it.
Death.
Yes, that's what I fear the most. Fear to Allah. Allah can take my life away anytime. I'm afraid, one day I'll wake up, and realized, I'm no longer live. My heart stop racing. That I'm already in Barzakh. And I'm afraid... that, that time, I didn't get the chance to... to get rid of my sins. That time I still not bertaubat. I fear to this, yet I still do sins. And not just accidentally, but sometimes purposely :/
I hate my life for this....................
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najla
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