Hi.

So today's the last Friday of 2011. I really should study harder. And harder. And harder. The pressure is totally on. I wish I could go back to when I was 12. Semangat belajar. But now I got more lazier and lazier than ever. This sucks. Really sucks.

I shop stop procrastinating. I should stop being so lazy. I should stop over-stressing about everything. And I think my sister is reading my blog post...............................................

I will still read novels, except not as much as I do. I mean, before this my grammar and vocabulary sucks ok but now I improved! But I should focus on other subjects, too. Especially Math, Science, Geo, KH and......................................... Sejarah. But I dislike KH more than anything. More than Sejarah. Ok.

So for next year, ok I can't talk too much because I'm afraid I will ended up do something else. Maybe I should make those freakin revision books like novels. I mean, read them like it's full of suspicious then teacher teach me. Eh?


I'm so over thinking.

So, I should just get over things about the complication between me and my mum. If I want to my peace, where? I'm just stuck in my bedroom, means, I'll just find peace in my bedroom. I can't even go anywhere. Even taman depan rumah lol. I wish I could have secret garden or something. With swings, full of green, fresh air. Not gonna happen.

Bought revision books. For next year, the English novels will be How I Met Myself. I thought How I Met Your Mother yknow -.- And the Malay novels... No more Panas Salju. I mean, I read it, it was my brother's. But next year, we'll be using other novels. Yeah, we're the first generation to read those new novels. Since form 1, I feel so special haha.

Science. My friends in Twitter said Science bab 1 pun dah susah. I mean, they revised already, so I took my book, but ended up reading nothing. My god, why me so the very lazy lol.

I hate Geography because I hate to memorise the map. That means I should start loving those maps?! I mean, it's not that I hate to discover those, I just hate when the question said, "Di manakan tempat yang blah blah pertanian blah blah" something like that. I mean, I don't even know where, and then the option of answers just show maps without saying what's the name of the place because I have to guess it. Even if I know what place is it, I don't know where, I mean, in the map. I suck at this. Laugh at me now, Geography lover. And even my mum said Geo senang and it's just me who's the lazy and how my brother used to always got A. I hate being compared and I hate being underestimated. Yeah ok fine I should start memorise the place and where is it in the map. K.

Mathematic. Hah. I'm so slow to catch up. Ugh numbers. Algebra. Those shape thingy. And one of the things I hate the most about me is that I always careless! Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Not just careless, my memory's not really, I don't know what to say. I always... forget things? This probably because I slept after Asar. I mean, overslept ok. Now this is what I get.


I feel stupid. I miss being smart kid. Now....

And it seems like nobody will ever believe in me.