Forever Alone? You're kidding.

Today imma talk about............ jeng jeng jeng.... relationship! Some of people I know already in relationship, some already last for more than a year, some in on-and-off-on-and-off relationship, some having crush on someone, some change lovers like girls changing clothes, some likes to make relationships like games, ugh flack you player, some people are hard to fall in love, some can't in love with anyone else because they already have a big big huge crush on celebrities/non-existent people like book characters and some are.......

Forever alone.

Come on. Forever alone? Are you flacking kidding me? FOREVER? No, muggles, no. There is no such thing as forever alone unless you're old, you just lost someone you love and close your heart to everyone and it's impossible for you to have lovers, well that I can call 'forever alone'. The thing is, you're still young, there's still many things you can do besides relationships. Like, ok this maybe sound boring but yes, study. Or lifeless as me, I write hehe.....................

I understand, I'm a teenager too. Sometimes I do feel kinda jealous of sweet couple. No, I'm not desperate but it's just a feeling. I mean, they're so sweet and I just, sometimes I want to feel to be loved by someone I really love. You know? But to think how stupid I am to think about it because I'm just freakin fifteen. Alright, almost fifteen. Talk about that Almost Fifteen book lol. Sometimes I get jealous to see someone younger than me having long lasting relationship. Lol. Sampai hati budak kecik pun dah pandai dah sekarang ~*~*~*~*~*~

But eventually I just realized, I'm still young! And this relationship thing, is it illegitimate or legitimate? Halal or haram? Haaaaa~ Let my real relationship will be marriage. Shut the fallen up, I know I'm still YOUNG and I should not mention this MARRIAGE thing lol. I'm just saying, yes, we all have crush! With or without our realization, we do. At least, admire someone? Adore someone? Like, omg he's so cute. Omg she's so hot. Omg he's damn gorgeous. Omg she's pretty. Omg omg omg is that a dude or a chick. Omg. Ugh stop the omg will ya. Omg.

And to be frank, please don't laugh, I kinda hope just let my mum choose partner for me, although maybe it would be hurtful because sometimes our mum's choice would like "OH MY GUCCI, HIM? MUM, I WANT A HANDSOME DOCTOR. MUM, I WANT ONE DIRECTION. MUM, I WANT ETHAN WATE I DON'T CARE HE'S EXIST OR NOT. MUM, I WANT BENZ ALIF. MUM I WANT TENGKU RYAN AMEER. MUM, I WANT MY CRUSH OOPS HEHEHEHE WAIT WHO IS MY CRUSH? THEY'RE ALL IMPOSSIBLE TO BE MINE UHUK UHUK UHUK SORRY I NEED COUGH MEDICINE." I don't know what am I nonsense about. So yeah, ah, I need to focus on PMR rather than this.

But the thing is, stop saying you're forever alone. That's just so overrated. You're not going to end up alone FOREVER. And those in relationship, are you sure that 'forever' exist? Never say forever because we don't know the fate design. We don't know how the fate fare us. WE NEVER KNOW.

And the most matter is...

STOP BEING SO DESPERATE OF HAVING RELATIONSHIP. YOU SOUND SO DESPERATE. Like you're saying "Hey I'm single, thought you might change my status ;)" "hai awakx sayew single...." "Nak boyfriend satu?" "Aq lonely arhhhhh...... nak awekxxxx......" "Klu nuck jd bf i, kena adew rxz (idk what kind of motorcycle just shut up), byk duit, encem etc etc etc, klu u adew ciri2 yg i nuck, inbox i k? tamao combongx combongx"

Lol k I don't know the bahasa rempit. But seriously, minta boyfriend macam minta teh tarik kat kedai mamak? You better date ane kat kedai mamak cukuplah aiyerz. Facebook is so not a dating websites. Although some found their soulmate in Facebook. Who cares?!

The thing is, why do you need to be so desperate? That's kind of gedik. And when you have boyfriend, you keep talking about him 24/7, and then your relationship last for like 3 months or less. From "oh my boyfriend I love you baby :*" to "ew i hate you, bla bla bla *stupid heartbreak essay*" thingy. And then you started to be desperate for new boy/girlfriend. Oh come on. But when it comes to study? Can you at least, you know, think about it? Yes, I'm not smart and I don't study much and all, but at least I think about it. Well, I still don't sound good lol.

I'm sorry if I sound evil or whatever, sorry if I sound like embarrass some people. But it's the truth. It's, um, just an advice? Yes, I'm not good. Not good at all. But it's for your own sake, too. I don't want suddenly I become one of desperate people and people will like "Ek eleh dia cakap orang, dia pun dua kali lima... Ek ele ek ele......." Ugh shut up.

You need to stop thinking about it. You won't die without being in relationship. How about focus on your study and then you can get good job and then it will easy for you to get married in the future lol done. Like... Boys; you study harder, get good grades and then you'll get good job then you got money and then when you have lovers, you don't need to worry about finance because you got the $$$. And girls; awesome job = find richer guys = rich guys' parents likes smart girls HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA OH MY I'M IN PAYNE.

And to Muslims, berzina itu haram. Even by look at the person in the eye will give you sins. Perempuan dengan lelaki tak baik bertentang mata. But sometimes I can't help it lah, I mean, I can't help from look at the person's face. Automatically I look at their eyes. Especially at my friends or my cousins or those I always fight with. But with some random guys, lol I'm kinda shy that my face getting hotter if I look up, especially my crush and my ex. Ex-crush, for the fact that I have no crush now. I mean, look in their eyes? Makes me get nervous. Lol. so, lower your gaze. Easy. Not. For. Me. I need to practice. Sometimes I play this game, look at the person in the eyes and those who blinks lose :B. Or with those I always fight with, I always give them 'the look' lol. I mean, make fierce face with scary eyes, konon nak takutkan dia orang padahal tak takut pun -_______-"



Well, nobody's perfect ahaks~ At least I will try to be better :-(