Picture Future.

Whoa, I like my title. It rhymes! Hahahaha. So, yes, future. In the future, I will die. Lol, everyone will die ok omg now it's getting scary. No no, I am so not gonna make scary post. I know I don't blog much about what I'm doing exactly. I usually blog what's on my mind rather than what I'm doing. Maybe because nothing's going on with my life, just plain, typical everyday.

As I was saying, yes, picture future. Can you picture yourself in the future? What can you see about yourself 10 years from now? Working? Married? Graduated? End of the world? Dealing with death? I should stop talking about death.

Oh by the way, there's this sweet sayings;
May you never steal, lie, or cheat, but if you must steal, then steal away my sorrows, and if you must lie, lie with me all the nights of my life, and if you must cheat, then please cheat death because I couldn't live a day without you. - from the movie Leap Year. SO SWEET MOVIE :>

“Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away” - Will Smith

Ehehe, not related to future at all huh :p

So I said I want to be a doctor and author many times, right? But I'm a girl. The one who will be a woman. And I have this weird thing I fancy about. I fancy about being a mother. I KNOW, SHUT UP, I'M NOT EVEN SAYING I WANT TO GET MARRIED. Hey, marriage is good thing. Ok, not a good topic to talk about in this age.

Yes, a mother. I want to feel how every mother feels. Carry baby for nine months, deliver the baby, feel the pain of give birth, then forget about all the pain as I look at the baby, the feeling how the baby in my arms, and knowing that I'm the mother of this beautiful little person, that feeling when the baby grasp my finger with the little hand for the first time, seeing my own baby grow up..

You know, that feeling.

I know............... I'm just fourteen and a half but well....... I just love babies so much. I love kids so much. Sometimes when I see my own little sister, I feel like, when will I have my own baby? How I love my little so much sometimes I feel like I want her to be my baby lol k.

Besides, I had this dream, I know it's unbelievable, but I dreamed that I had baby. No, no father :B, but well, it's just, I already love the baby..... Don't ask me how the hell did I gave birth to the baby, it was just a dream!

Dang this motherhood feeling.

And my sister said she won't quit her job, so I will take care of her baby. So want the baby to love me more than my sister :p

God............ Why............................

Plus, being a doctor is kind of a hard job. Always busy. So I might will quit my job as my baby grows up. I don't trust nannies much, ew I don't want my baby loves the nanny more.



Ok so maybe I think too much. Maybe I picture the future in over way. Whoops!!!!!

Hey, I think I can apply job as a nanny for my part-time job after PMR, or after SPM or use it for my own sake.

Lol what the hell am I thinking? I should think about study now! I have test next week. Wish me luck!